POSITIVE! This is the word in which everyone in the world should try and use, and to think about daily. Every week I try to stress to people about how much they should be grateful for what life they have and how they should take life as it comes, and not to take advantage of it. Do not get me wrong everyone has there ups and downs.. its normal, but some people do take advantage.
I can most definitely say that since having my first seizure my outlook on life is totally different. I have learnt what a tough life can be like. In regards to jobs, homes, friends and family. I have worked out that I must have moved about 14 times within the last 4 years. Mostly due to my epilepsy and people not accepting me as I am. All through my epilepsy I have struggled. I will be the first to admit this. Although to be honest I do not believe that I should have been treated the way I did back then, as it does till this day effect me now. I left home when I was 17 and moved in with my previous partner. He, his mother and step dad were AMAZING to me! They took me in as one of their own and looked after me when I was going through the most horrific experiences I could ever have imagined. They helped me in soo many way such as taking me to work, to hospital and doctor appointments, helping me when coming round from having a seizure, to also calm and de stress me as much as they could, and to be honest the biggest thing was they loved me for who I was and never judged me for this.
I remember his mother always saying to me that I should never be ashamed of who I am and that I am and always will be a very strong young lady due to all I have been through, and that her and her partner always admired me for what was happening to me and how I dealt and coped with it. Although the main thing she use to say was to me was to be positive. She knew of all people that I am a worrier. I used to non intentionally sit and worry about the next time I was going to have a seizure, whether work would sack me for having them, what happens during my seizure, how many times did I have one last night? etc. etc. But the main thing I used to be scared about is what people thought and would think about me having a seizure. She helped make me stronger and not care about other peoples opinions, and she helped me to think positive to keep me from stressing myself out too much as she knew the after affects it had on me and my body.
(P.s The above is to be continued)
Have any of you guys been through any of the above?
Love Alice
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