As I am very sure not all of you know me. ( Unless you have followed my other blog in the past ). Although this is currently the start of my new fashion/epilepsy blog so I am just getting back into the swing of things.
Well I will start off my name is Alice and I am 22 years old. I am epileptic ad have been diagnosed since I was 18 years old. I have been through a lot of ups and downs within the last few years, and I can most definitely say that I am very lucky to have come through the other side okay. I am one of a very big family so I have had a bit of a hectic life! Although I would never want to change this.
I do not know about you all but I left school, went to college to study Graphic Design, Photography, and Textiles Technology. Being honest I do not remember much of my college life a this is when I started becoming ill, so my experience of college is not the same as others unfortunately. Luckily after finishing college I then finally got the diagnosis of being epileptic. During college I lost many friends through my epilepsy. I mean I even lost a college boyfriend (Hes a total numpty) due to the fact I had seizures, he did not like the fact that i had funny spells (seizures) so he dumped me outside New Look! And I know what al of you are thinking ''Really??''(Yes I mean it!!) And guess what I had a seizure as I was so upset and I was crying in floods of tears, although guess what he did... just walked away! I was so so very lucky my friend was about to save the day otherwise I do not like to think what could have happened to me!
The people in the photos below are my friends Holly, Emma and Kerry. They are the most amazing people in the world! And if I didn't have them back then and now, well I dred to think where I would be today.
I must also say my previous partner and his mother and step father were absolutely amazing to me as well! What they all did for me will always be in my heart and never forgotten! And I will always love them to the pieces! And they know this too :). They will always have a piece of my heart.
I can say to everyone, and I am pretty sure that other fellow epileptics will agree that epilepsy is a life tester. If you can get through the diagnosis of this, all of the conclusions and side effects to the disability then you can get through anything. So over the past few years I have felt like I have been on a constant roller coaster in which would never stop. This rollercoaster is mixed with emotions, fears, as well as what if's. Many many people who do not have this disability do just think its about seizures. But if you are one of them then stop, think and look it up! Many people are very naive about this disability and do think we have seizures and that's it. All I can say is that is just the start! I must also say to all the people who know epileptics and stand by them, well I am so proud of you all :) It sounds silly but I know my friends have had a rough time of things with this, and without them I would not not be here. So anyone who stands by there friends/family with this makes me very very very happy!!! :) I have lost so many people through this, or they now judge me differently and I know how emotionally unstable and draining this feels and I would never want this on anyone.
So the last few years has been awful for me, with all of my epilepsy diagnosis to also moving around 12 times within 3 years! Everything has been up in the air. Although in 2012 I met my amazing partner Joe. He has been there for me through so much! Through seizure scares, life problems, we have a flat together, although the one thing that does scare me is since we have been together (Fingers crossed) I have been totally controlled by my epilepsy medication so he has never seen me have a seizure. And I must say every day I get scared I will have one. Although what will be will be. We have fun, have movie evenings, meals, and cuddles! What more could a girl want :)
I currently still work full time, I have since leaving college, I have my amazing friends, certain family members, my partner and well all I do is try to stay positive everyday! If I can do it then anyone can do it. You just have to want it. On the outside I look like a normal young lady but inside and the past has been very difficult. Life has been difficult. Although think on the bright side of life!
(Picture by Google)
Has anyone experienced anything I have been through?
Love Alice
xx
